One shot – Kaitlyn&Harry (for anon)
“How long are you going for this time then?” I asked sounding depressed. Harry sighed “4 months. I promise to ring you every night babe ok. Don’t cry kaitlyn you know I have to go. ill be back, I promise.” He wiped my tears with his soft hands. I nodded and I put a fake smile on. He kissed me gently on the lips and gave me a tight hug. A tear in his eye as he walked to the cab and he looked back round, blowing me a kiss. I understand that Harry’s career was important to him but four months was too long. The cab drove off. I missed him already.
1 months later.
I was sitting on the bed in our flat with my knees squeezed into my chest. I felt alone. I wanted Harry. Even though Harry and I skyped, texted and phoned each other like all day, it wasn’t the same. I wasn’t the same without him. I felt like I piece of my heart was missing and was craving and begging for the boy I loved.
3 months later.
I was in LA to surprise my boyfriend. I couldn’t cope with not seeing him. The hotel receptionist had given me a spare key and I walked along the corridor and stood outside Harry’s room. I could hear him singing to himself. I missed that voice. That beautiful voice that just made me want to cry. As I opened the door Harry looked up. I dropped my bags and we both ran towards each other. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist as he spun me around. He kissed me passionately and our tongues fought for minutes.
“You’re here” he mumbled through kisses. “I missed you too much” I whispered back. “Aww baby, I missed you too. I missed you so much Kaitlyn. I couldn’t concentrate on anything because all I wanted was my girl” I felt tear trickle down my cheek. “It felt wrong being here. Being away from my Kaitlyn for so long.”
“I love you Styles” I smiled as I buried my head in his chest. “I love you too Kaitlyn. I always have and I always will.”
Sky&Harry (for anon)
It was almost mid night, I was in Spain on a school trip for the week, but there was something, someone on my mind. Harry. I had known him for years and we had gotten to know each other more lately. We weren’t best friends but I always had a thing for him and this holiday, I had fallen for him badly. My phone vibrated. It was Harry.
Can’t sleep, are you awake? .xx
I didn’t know whether to ignore the text and pretend I was sleeping or reply. I wanted to reply because I actually couldn’t sleep.
Yes im awake, can’t sleep eitherxx I replied
Meet by the 24 hour cafe downstairs? .xx I was going to get done for this by the teachers but I didn’t care right now. I grabbed my hoody and walked out of my room in the resort.
As I exited the elevator I already noticed Harry sitting at a table in the café with a coffee. “Hey you! Want a drink?” He smiled making me feel weak at the knees. I asked for a hot chocolate then sat down. We talked for ages. His curly chocolate brown hair and those amazing green eyes just made me want him even more when I looked at him.
After we finished our drinks, Harry and I walked outside by the pool. It was empty and no one else was around. We both stood at the edge of the pool which was probably the wrong thing to do because Harry pushed me in.
“It’s cold! “I screeched whilst Harry was in fits of laughter. I pushed myself up on the edge and pulled him in. Harry pulled me underwater and smiled at me underwater. As we both swam up, our noses almost touching. I couldn’t resist. I pressed my lips against his and he didn’t pull back just kiss me passionately back. His soft red lips making my heart explode inside. I pulled back minutes later. This was my chance to tell harry how I felt about him.
“Harry, I like you. You probably think I’m a freak and don’t like me back but I just..” Harry stopped me and pulled me into him and kissed me again. This time even more passionately. I could feel him grin as our tongues fought. “You’re not a freak. I like you too. I always have Sky.”
Tina&Harry (for http://hrhprinceharrylover.tumblr.com/)
It was 11pm, I was at my boyfriend Harry’s house and we decided to watch paranormal activity 2. Why, just why did I agree on this? I am terrible with scary movies but I just wanted to impress Harry. We had been going out for a couple of weeks now and I really did love him.
I was wrapped in a blanket with Harry’s arm around me. The film kept making me jump but I wanted to come across as brave because surprisingly I have never watched a scary film with him. We kept looking over to see each other and he kept smiling at me showing off his adorable dimples and dazzling white teeth. The noises in the film making me jump again and I screamed quietly this time.
“haha come here babe” Harry laughed as he lifted me and placed me on his lap so my legs were sideways. I dug my head into his chest and we carried on watching the film. I could hear his heart beating and every time something jumpy came on he would squeeze me comfortingly.
We finished the film and then talked for a while. When suddenly the lights switched off. I knew that it was only because Harry has been having power cuts all week but I was still terrified. “Bloody Mary…”Harry teased sarcastically. “Harry don’t!” I screamed and hid my face into his chest. “Hey Tina I’m only joking lovely. You shouldn’t be scared when I’m here” He said softly which surprisingly calmed me down and I didn’t feel as scared anymore. The lights turned back on again and I put my legs either side of harry as we looked at each other. Those curls. Whenever he would flip them I felt weak at the knees.
“Harry, I’m awful with horror films” I confessed. Harry laughed. “Yes I’ve gathered that thank you.” “It’s not funny” I moaned sounding like a little kid. “haha it’s a little funny babe. But you should have just told me you didn’t want to watch the film. I do love you, you know.” He smiled. “I love you too” He pressed his lips against mine and we passionately kissed as our tongues twisted around each other’s. I felt safe. I always felt safe when I was in Harrys arms and I never wanted to let go of him.
Bia&Liam (for anon)
I was at a house party with my boyfriend Liam and so many of my friends. Liam was dancing with the other drunk boys making me laugh, whilst I was sitting on the sofa on the other side of the room. I was so happy. Liam and I had been together quite a while now and our relationship has been amazing. He has never let me down. That was until I saw what I had dreaded seeing.
Becca the girl I hated all over Liam. They were kissing. Liam knew that I hated her. She would always try to wined me up and tell me that I wasn’t good enough for Liam.
He pushed away looking angry but I didn’t know what to believe. I ran outside and walked down the street in the dark with tears streaming down my face. I heard footsteps behind me.
“Bia! Wait!” Liam shouted as he came running after me. “What do you want Liam?” I said through my tears as he caught up with me and I stopped to look at him.
“Bia, it wasn’t what it looked like” He said with a tear in his eyes. “Liam I saw you kissing Becca?!”I shouted. He was beautiful and it was hard to shout at him but I didn’t know what to do. Was I overreacting? Liam has never done this before so I guess I was just shocked.
“I pushed her away. Becca makes me sick, she just wanted to make you jealous. Bia believe me, please don’t cry” He said softly. I had to believe him. Liam would never do that to me. I loved him. I just looked at him. He stepped closer to me wiping me tears away with his soft hands.
“I love you Bia. Not anyone else. You are the only one I want. It breaks my heart to see you upset.” “I love you too Liam.” And with that he pulled me into him and kissed me. All my worries drifted away and whenever he would kiss me it would always feel like the first time. I would get weak at the knees and my heart would race. We kissed for a while but for me it wasn’t enough. “Let’s just forget about it. Can we go home?” I asked. “Come on” He grabbed my hand and we walked back to his house. I loved Liam. We could never fall out with each other for long because it just didn’t seem right. I wanted to be with him forever.
Rita&harry (for anon)
My first day at Holmes Chapel and my mum already expects me to go to work at the bakery down the road. I can’t bake to save my life and my mum knows that but she wants me not to just live in my room for the whole of the summer.
I walked down the road and found the bakery. I walked in making the bell on the door ring. I saw the most beautiful face. I stared at him as he smiled. I didn’t say anything; I just looked at those chocolate brown curls and that gorgeous smile. He cleared his throat. “Erm can I help you with anything?” I blushed at his accent. “Err is bob here, it’s supposed to be my first day of working here today? I’m Rita” I asked shyly. “He’s got the day off today so he left me in charge. I’m Harry by the way. Do you want to grab an apron?” He asked pointing to the aprons. I nodded and put it on.
Oh great. I was going to embarrass myself in front of the most handsome boy I had ever seen. Harry and I talked and he told me what I had to do.
“So have you moved here?” He asked. His husky voice making me blush and weak at the knees. “Yeah, I moved to number 43 this morning aha” I replied. He told me how he lived not far down from where I live. Inside I was surprisingly happy that we lived so close.
I had been working for 3 hours now and harry and I got to know each other. I was really falling for him. As he was rolling the dough, I just kind of looked at him. The concentrated look on his face. Suddenly the oven started to beeped. “Oh shit” I ran to open the oven. All the savouries were burnt. “Haha maybe we should make this easier for! Can you roll dough?” He spoke sarcastically. “Yes I can roll dough” I replied with more sarcasm whilst throwing flour at him. He through some back at me and we had a flour/dough fight.
Harry walked close to me. Our noses almost touching. I stared into those sparkling green eyes as he brought his lips towards mine and kissed me. I didn’t pull back and I kissed him back passionately. I liked him. I wanted him. I needed him.
Laura&Niall (for http://jiall-boran.tumblr.com/)
“Niall! You came!” I shouted as I ran towards him and he pulled my legs around him and spun me around.
“Of course I came! I wouldn’t miss my favourite girl’s 17th!” He spoke in his strong Irish accent making me weak at the knees as he dug his head into my shoulders. I missed that feeling. The feeling when he spoke to me. I missed that voice. “Happy birthday babe” He mumbled through my hair and then and put me down. Niall and I had been best friends for years now but I had always liked him more than a friend, I just didn’t know how to tell him.
“This is the best surprise! How was New York?” I asked excitedly and still shocked that he actually came all this way. Him and the rest of the boys had been going round to different countries to work on their music and I hadn’t seen Niall in months. “It was great. The lads and I finished shooting our new music video but I missed you too much Laura.” He said making me blush. “I missed you too.” I smiled.
The party went one. Everyone getting drunk and Niall and I were on the swings in the back garden just catching up. I got lost in his crystal sparkling eyes as he spoke in his husky voice.
“Oh yeah, before I forget. Here you go. I don’t know if you will like it but I had to get you something special for you birthday” He said as he handed me a small velvet bag. “Niall you didn’t have to get me anything.” “Yeah I did. Go on, open it” I gently opened the bag and found the most gorgeous silver necklace. I got up from the swing.
“Oh my god! Niall its beautiful. I love it. Thank you so much!” I said as I squeezed him tightly. I tried to put the necklace on. “Here let me.” He took it from my hand and I held up my hair. The cold silver touching my skin making me shiver inside as he breathed on my neck. When he put the necklace on me he put his hands round my waist and rested his head on my shoulder. “Im so glad you came Niall. I couldn’t have asked for a better 17th” I said to him and he turned me around and pulled me into him so our noses touched. He didn’t say anything, just pressed his lips against mine and kissed me passionately. I didn’t pull back, just kiss him back. I didn’t want to let go. He made me feel like the luckiest girl on the planet.
Charlotte&harry (for http://accioharryedwardstyles.tumblr.com/)
I was walking down Oxford Street after a long day of shopping with my friends. They had left now and I was on my way to Starbucks to pick up a warm coffee before I get back on the tube. It was quite late so there weren’t many people around.
As I walked into Starbucks I bumped into someone. I couldn’t quite make out who it was until I looked at him. His beautiful curls and sparkling eyes. I recognised that aftershave scent he had. “Charlotte?” He asked shocked to see me here. But then I remembered. I remembered why I broke up with him in the first place. The fame had got to him.
I was walking to One Direction’s dressing room to say congratulations for coming third place. I looked through the door and I saw her. The girl I hated all over my boyfriend. Harry pushed her against the wall and kissed her back.
I remember walking out and having a huge argument with harry and then the rest was history.
(end of flashback)
“Hi harry” I said quietly. I kind of wanted to forget about the past. It has been about one and half years since I last saw him. “Char, it’s been too long! Let me buy you a drink” He said in his husky accent. He looked really happy to see me. I nodded and found a table and sat down waiting for harry to return with our drinks. I was surprised that there weren’t screaming girls surrounding the whole of Starbucks but then again I don’t think Harry would have told the world that he was coming here.
“One Caramel Macchiato for my lovely” He smiled handing me my drink. “You remembered. I’m impressed Styles.” I said taking a sip of the hot liquid. “Well you’re not exactly easy to forget charlotte” He smiled back. We talked for hours and Harry told me all about his career. I actually forgot why I disliked him for so long. Well I never actually hated him. I just made people think I did when deep down inside me. I loved him and I never stopped. He was such an adorable, funny, nice guy.
After we finished our drinks, we walked outside together. Harry stopped and turned to face me. He pulled me closer to him, our noses almost touching. He then held my face and kissed me passionately. I kissed him back and when we eventually released. He cleared his throat. “Harry, the truth is that I never stopped loving you” I whispered. He didn’t reply. He just pressed his lips against mine again and kissed me even harder. Our tongues fought. It began to rain heavily but that didn’t break us apart. I loved Harry and I never wanted to let go.
Jordyn&niall (for http://1damerica.tumblr.com/ )
I woke up on a Saturday morning feeling great. I was going out with one of the hottest members of One Direction. Niall. It still hasn’t hit me yet even though we had been going to 2 months. I remember only a couple of months; he didn’t even know I existed. I’m more than just a fan now.
The boys were invited to this dance meeting party thing tonight and Niall insisted on me going. I hadn’t seen Niall in about a month due to him travelling around the world so I was nervous but excited. I had no idea what to wear.
I got out of the shower at about 6pm and then started to panic. I only had one and a half hours until the cab was picking me up. I quickly dried my hair and added a couple of bouncy curls for volume. I did my make up with a little foundation, mascara, eyeliner and lipstick. I chose to wear a cute, white prom dress. (http://paucaverba.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/08/White-New-Years-Eve-Dress.jpg)
Before I knew it, I heard the cab beep outside as I grabbed my bag and walked into the car. The nerves took over me. I was worried that Niall would not like me anymore. I didn’t know why. You just get worried about these things when you haven’t seen your boyfriend for about a month. I arrived at the hotel where the party was being arranged. Outside the door I saw him. His beautiful sparkling eyes and blonde hair. He was wearing a very smart suit that made him look extra handsome. He spotted me and we had one of those moments where we both ran to each other. He picked me up and spun me around. “Jordyn!” He shouted making me giggle into his chest. All my worries suddenly drifted away. “I’ve missed you so much Niall” I said as he kissed me. “I missed you too Jo”
The night went on and Niall and I caught up on things. He told me about the tour, the music video. I obviously already knew everything about their career but hearing his Irish voice just made me happy. Everyone was dancing and getting drunk and then JLS’s ‘take a chance on me’ came on. Niall put his arms around my waist and I wrapped my arms around his neck as we slowly stepped back and forth.
“This reminds me of being back as school.” Niall laugh. “What do you mean?” I smiled. “You know, when you find that perfect girl and then you ask her to prom and you just feel nervous and happy at the same time because you love her so much” Niall smiled. I nodded and giggled. It actually did remind me of prom. It felt like the very first time Niall spoke to me. I felt sparks. We both stared into each other’s eyes. I got lost in them. He pulled me closer to him and pressed his lips against mine. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. I felt like the whole world had stopped and just us two were standing in the spotlight. I feeling was usually rare for me but whenever I was with Niall, it wouldn’t go away. But I liked this. I loved Niall and standing here just being with him made me happy.
I hate this part. Saying good bye to someone who you love even though they didn’t know. Harry and I had been best friends for like forever and I had always had a crush on him but he could never know. He was a huge pop star and he would never want to date his boring best friend from Holmes Chapel. “I’ll be back in a couple of months. I promise” He said with tears in his eyes as he touched my chin. I looked down trying to hide my tears but I couldn’t. I hated it when Harry went away and this time he didn’t even know exactly when he was coming back. “I’m just going to miss you” I said. He nodded. “I’ll miss you too babe” He whispered and kissed me quickly on the lips. I wanted this to last longer. I waved at him as he walked into his cab.
2 months later:
“Harry, when are you coming back” I cried through the other end of the phone. “Aww baby, don’t cry. I’ll be back soon” He replied. I could tell he was upset through his voice but he just wanted me to be happy. He always made me feel so special even if we weren’t together. I still got chills. We always talked for hours on the phone, texted and skyped each other but it still wasn’t the same. I needed him. I was trying to live my life normally and fake a smile on my face but Harry was the only friend that I could really trust and liked me so it was just difficult.
5 months later:
I was buzzing. Harry was coming home today and I was sitting, waiting in Harry’s kitchen. His family was in Scotland but Harry wanted to come home, so he could see me. The doorbell rang and I sprinted to the door and swung it open. I jumped onto him and wrapped my legs around his waist. He carried me inside and spun me around. “I’ve missed you so much Anjela” He mumbled through my hair. “I’ve missed you too” I replied still in his arms. I took in his familiar after shave scent.
We were both now in his living room on the sofa. Harry pulled me onto his lap and I played with his curls whilst we both were watching the hangover and eating pizza.
About half way through the film Anjela fell asleep. She looked so peaceful and beautiful. She was breathing slowly. I moved her gently so her head was resting on my chest. Her eyes blinked open. “Go back to sleep babe” I whispered and stroked her hair as she shut her eyes again. I continuously kissed her head softly.
When Anjela eventually woke up, she turned around so she we were both looking at each other. She smiled at me. Her smile was different to other girls. She lit up my world when she smiled. It just made me so happy. “Harry, you don’t know how much I’ve missed you and it’s not only because your my best friend. I have to tell you eventually. I just like you. More than a friend. But I know you don’t like me back so we can just forget tha..” I interrupted her by pressing my lips against hers. She kissed back. I didn’t let go. I didn’t want to let go. She was my perfect girl and I knew It all along.
Sydney&Niall (for: http://musicislove135.tumblr.com/)
“Okay girls? Are you ready to meet them?” Kaleigh, our manager asked us. We were all one direction’s back up dancers and now we were all ready to meet them. I was super excited. This was just like a dream come true.
The boys walked through the double doors and sat down on the table in the cafeteria. My heart beat so fast it was hard to keep up. I was screaming in my head. All the others were fangirling as they introduced themselves. “And you are?” Niall sat next to me and smiled. “I’m Sydney” I replied shyly. “That’s a really pretty name” He replied in his strong Irish accent making me blush.
We were all having lunch and were just discussing the tour plans. I didn’t really speak much. I was still overwhelmed that Niall spoke to me let alone he was sitting next to me. Every couple of minutes I could feel him staring at me which made me feel a little self-conscious. “Right girls we have practice now so come on” The lead dancer informed us. The boys said goodbye and we made our way a big hall. We had never practiced on the arena stage but I couldn’t wait.
5 hours later:
We finally finished rehearsing all of our dance routines and were now free to do whatever. I walked down the corridor all sweaty and hot as I bumped into Niall. Oh great. I really didn’t want him to see me like this. I looked tired and disgusting. “Hello Sydney” He said as my whole body froze. He remembered my name. “Err hi niall” I smiled back and relaxed a little. “Where are you off to?” He looked at me with his bright blue sparkling eyes. I got lost in them for a few seconds before replying. “Oh just my room” “Well maybe I could show you round the studios and the arena. If you want?” He asked and I nodded. “That would be nice. Thanks” I couldn’t believe this. I followed niall around like a lost puppy but all this stuff was just amazing.
We finally reached the arena stage. It was absolutely huge. My mouth dropped as niall grabbed my hand and we walked on the stage. No one else was here, and the lights were dimmed. I wasn’t surprised, it was like 10pm. “Wow” was all I managed to get out. I was still gobsmacked. I couldn’t believe I was going to be dancing on this very stage with this very boy. Niall laughed as he grabbed a guitar he found and wiped the dust off it. I sat down in the middle of the stage crossed legged and Niall sat opposite me. “Play me something” I said to him and he started tuning the guitar. He started playing with some notes and then played a beautiful tune. His face looked so concentrated yet so relaxed. I found it hard to breathe. I just stared at his gorgeous face.
Niall finished playing and looked at me. We were looking into eacothers eyes as he moved his face closer to mine and his soft lips collided with mine. I kissed back and moved closer to him and his hands found my cheeks and he started kissing me harder. I shut my eyes and my heart stopped. It was craving for Niall even though he was here. I never wanted to let go.I felt like the whole world had stopped and it was just us two in the spotlight. This was an unforgettable kiss.
We were walking down the road. Just me and my best friend harry. We had been friends for years and had both been through a lot but we were always there for each other. Hand in hand as we entered the park. There was no one here, just us. I sat down on one of the swings. “Aww does little catrine want me to push her?” Harry asked sarcastically making me laugh. “Yes actually” I winked as harry walked behind me. He pushed me once and then let go. He didn’t push again but he stopped me. Harry put his arms around my waist from behind me and rested his head on my shoulder. I couldn’t help but leave him a small kiss on the cheek and then he kissed me back on the cheek several times squeezing me tight around the waist. It didn’t hurt. It just felt perfect.
We were now sitting on the grass opposite each other. Harry’s phone beeped and he started typing away. “Who’s that?” I asked curiously. “Farrah” he replied still staring at his phone typing. I suddenly felt really jealous. I knew Farrah had I thing for harry and I get more and more jealous every time I look at her and harry. “Are you two together?” I asked randomly out of nowhere. He looked at me and laughed. “That’s a bit personal isn’t it! I’m joking, but no were just friends.” He smiled. “Is there anyone you like though?” I said casually lying down on the grass. I really hope I didn’t sound desperate. “Yes” Harry told me simply whilst lying down beside me looking at me.
We talked for a bit and then harry and I looked into eachothers eyes. I tried not to get lost but I really couldn’t help it. “I never realised how beautiful your eyes are” Harry said to me not realising I actually heard. I blushed as harry sat up. He pulled me up and placed his hands on my cheeks. He moved closer into me and pressed his lips against mine. My heart was racing but I relaxed and kissed him back. I minute later I knew this was wrong. Why were we kissing? He just told me he liked someone else. I pulled back and harry’s eyes saddened. “Harry, what are you doing? You like someone else.” I said with tears in my eyes. I wanted him to be mine. That kiss was perfect. “Cat, your right. I do like somone.” He said simply and put his arms around my waist. My heart broke. “That someone is you. It always has been you catrine” I kissed me again and this felt perfect. I didn’t know why he would chose me though. I was anything but beautiful or pretty but I wasn’t complaining.
Caroline&harry (for: http://imsecretlyme.tumblr.com/)
‘You coming?” Beth asked me as I grabbed my surf board and flip flops. “Yeah lets go” I replied. I work on Sydney beach only in the summer when I come to Australia. I loved surfing but teaching it to others over and over again got boring sometimes. I need the money some way though. Beth and I walked out of my house and to the beach where we met our ‘boss’ sam. He was a tall, tanned, blonde boy and was extremely fit but I don’t see him as anything else other than a brother or friend.
“Ok girls you’ll be teaching a smaller group today and it might be a little bit different but just be polite” He said in his Australian accent. Oh great. It better not be little kids. I just can’t control them. I took my hoody off and all I had on now was a bikini top and shorts. Beth and I waited for a long time before our group came out. Five hot teenage boys who I instantly recognised. If this was a dream I don’t want anyone to wake me up. It was one direction. I couldn’t believe it. I knew they were in Australia but had no idea they would want surf lessons from us. Beth and I looked at each other and I could tell she was fangirling inside too.
“Hello sorry we are late, we’re one direction” Liam smiled and I probably looked like an idiot with this huge grin on my face but I didn’t care. One direction was on the same beach as I was. They were all topless showing off their amazing tans which I couldn’t help but stare. “Yeah we know who you guys are. We are big fans. I’m Beth by the way” Beth looked at them and I was still overwhelmed at this whole situation.
We all walked to the hut where all the surf boards were kept. I still hadn’t said anything. Beth was talking to all the boys about our job. “sorry I didn’t get your name?” Harry asked me. I stared into his gorgeous eyes. He cleared his throat ones he realised I was getting lost in his eyes. “Err yeah mine name is Caroline” I said shyly. “That’s a nice name” He said politely as my heart started beating really fast. This was the best day ever.
The boys all grabbed a surf board each and we headed back to the sand. “Ok well, we have to practice on the sand before we can hit the waves.” I said. “Yeah before we can all get wet!” Louis shouted cheekily making everyone crack up. We taught the boys how to stand, hold the board and other general things and then we hit the waves.
The whole hour went by so quickly. It was too quick. This had been so much fun and in just an hour I had gotten to know the boys really well, especially harry. He would always come to me and we would try and surf together and talk. Everyone was on the sand now but I was sitting on my board further on in the water where there were no waves. I saw harry swimming closer to me and with hassle he managed to sit on the surf board too.
“So where are you off to now?” I asked. “We have some sound check thing later and then we can do whatever really” He said back. The wind pushed my hair on my face and harry moved it behind my ear with his hand. I blushed. He then turned my face and put his hands on my cheeks. He pulled me closer to him and pressed his soft lips against my tinted pink lips. I kissed him back as he pulled me off the surf board. We were still kissing and he picked me up so I wasn’t underwater because it was deep. The kiss became more passionate and I closed my eyes. This feeling was unforgettable. I never wanted to let go.